Monday, February 4, 2013

1517 to 550

We did it!  Finally unpacked everything and managed to downsize from 1517 square feet to 550 square feet.  Stuff is just stuff is our general motto, except for the fact that books don't count, because books aren't just stuff, books are worlds.  Heavy worlds that fill many, many boxes and line spots on all four living room walls, but worthwhile ones.  Books aside, the general rule for downsizing to a place about 1/3 the size of the old one was, we don't need things we almost never use.  Futon?  Gone.  (And the angels broke out with the Hallelujah Chorus.)  Extra dresser, gone.  Papasan chair, gone.  Second office desk, gone.  Guest bed, gone.  And it's all okay.  Cuz, stuff is just...stuff.  Whatever.  We're cozy now and it's okay.  We spent the weekend binging on organizing our book collection & watching Parks and Recreation and life was wonderful in its simplicity, the simple act of being in the same room with each other suddenly something we don't take for granted.  (Also, the people who live in the house up the mountain whose yard is visible from ours have a PONY.  So life is great.)

Since we pretty much took a three month break from dealing with infertility outside of headspace, coming back to it now, we're turning some pages, and making some pretty big decisions.  Right now, we're very much in the "this would be so great, this is what we want, this is what is right for our hearts and what we want to do so badly, done and done let's DO IT" stage, and I'm sure we'll come down from our "we made a decision that feels incredibly right" high to going through the many, many steps of finding out if we *can* (hello, several library books on hold for me).  While I blog about a lot of stuff, this one I'll have to figure out a little more first, before I share anything, or share that I won't be sharing much, if that makes sense.  Or share that we changed our minds, or share that it turns out it's impossible for us, etc etc etc.  Right now = "yay decision" high.  Later, the hard stuff.  Whatever way it goes.

Life is good.  Life will be okay.  I don't know if it's reading The Wisdom of Compassion: Stories of Remarkable Encounters and Timeless Insights by the Dalai Lama or being together or making a decision we feel happy with, or a combination of all three (probably all three) but I am deciding to curb the cynicism for now.

ALSO.  Lest I forget, a huge thank you to those who responded so kindly to my last post.



  1. Nothing like this hard stuff to make you realize the joy in the small things... to make you acutely aware of your blessings.
    And yay for decision high. Being proactive about this, feeling like we are on our way (even if the results are not as immediate as I had hoped) definitely helps. Know that I'll be thinking of you and wishing you the best.
    Also: a pony ! And
    "Stuff is just stuff, except for the fact books don't count, because books aren't just stuff, books are worlds. Heavy worlds that fill many, many boxes..."
    I might have to print that one out and make a poster out of it :)
    I am so happy that you are finally together again and that the move went smoothly. And I am off to read the article you linked to (Better homes and bloggers).

  2. Yay for being reunited! May everything good flow from being back in the same place.